You are a legitimate human being

Jan. 28, 2004

Guides: You are legit!  You are a legitimate human being.  You are sustaining yourself, you are contributing, you are legit.  Even if your chimney is clogged, you are legit.  Even if you haven’t snow-blown the driveway yet, you are legit.  Even if you owe money, you are legit.

Karen: Part of me is listening, and part of me is screaming.

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Feb. 1, 2004

Karen: This morning I was hit with the most awful pain, of feeling, “Choosing [ex name] as a partner was the biggest mistake of my life, and one I’m going to have to live with the rest of my life.”  Gods, I can’t tell you how awful that feels.  And yet... if we were connected karmically already... it isn’t that way, is it?  Sheesh... I think I need to talk to my guides.  Eh?  Guides?  Que pasa?

Guides: Your feet are cold.  You are letting yourself be uncomfortable again.  Go put on some socks.

Karen: See what I mean?  Always totally sensible and practical and on my side.  Insisting on my comfort, before they’ll even talk to me.  Gods, it makes me want to cry.  I never even had parents who did that.  I guess they’re reparenting me, too.

Okay... back... with two, count them, two, pairs of socks on.  This office is always cold in winter, but there’s sun shining in through the window on the footrest under the desk, so it’s hitting my feet... happy, guides? Not only that, but anticipating that they’d next nail me for not having eaten anything yet, I’ve put the bacon on.










Okay, now I’ve eaten also.  [Relationship advice, blah blah blah] When you bullshit, you end up having to weigh the truth alone.