Cultivate your beautiful independence

Jan. 22, 2004

Karen: Is [the person who had just left me after an 18-year relationship] going to come back to me if I make enough money?

Guides: Is that what you want?

[Sound of splash of cold water in my face]

Guides: (I think I was hearing them right!) [Name of ex] is never going to come back to you.  Your paths have diverged.

[This prediction was correct.  Notice it is not actually a prediction; it is a statement of a present fact, your paths have diverged, that has future consequences.] 

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Guides: You need to continue what you are doing: cultivate your beautiful independence.  Draw strength from the power within that you are truly learning you have.  Enjoy your competence, your adulthood, your ability, your success.  Feel the fire within that you feel in flashes, constantly.  Feel the joy of being free.  Above all, feel your adulthood.  That will make you strong.

Value yourself, and be with people who value you.

Karen: I guess it also helped that I slept lots last night... broken about three times, but still lots, something like nine hours.  At one point I really think my guides talked me to sleep.  “You are not giving yourself permission to sleep—see?  Look at the uncomfortable position you’ve put yourself in. Look how tense you are.  Look at the thoughts you are thinking—they are hurting you emotionally.  How are you supposed to sleep while doing all that to yourself?”  So I put myself in a more comfy position, and relaxed, and thought of more positive things... and that seemed to knock me out.  Sleep has become a good place to be, unlike before, when sometimes it seemed to be hell.